Melanin Mind & Soul: How it all began
Summer 2016 was a year of great awakening for me as a melanin woman. The constant media news of police brutality, reminded me of the literature I had read concerning the 1960s; when influential civil rights leaders such as Malcolm X and Dr Martin Luther King were trying to improve the lives of black people, and were assassinated for going about their daily lives, doing what they were destined to do.
As an occasional Twitter user, I came across the user profile UK Black Owned #UKBOB, which is a platform for black owned businesses in the UK. As black Britain’s become westernised and wear £500 on their feet and £600 on their shoulders, I came to realise that not enough of my own money was being invested in my black community. I made a conscious effort this summer to buy from black owned businesses where possible and document my journey.
I had been told about ‘colour code personality tests’ but never actually completed one. The test describes what motivates a person based on 30 questions about how you felt in certain situations as your younger self. I came out as a yellow. Yellows are motivated by fun. They love playful interaction and can be extremely sociable. Yellows are easily distracted; they can never sit still for long. This helped me to understand my behavior and why I never fulfill the things I want – such as starting a blog!
There have been times when I have felt like I was being dragged down an ocean due to personal circumstances. However, more recently I have been swimming to shore and decided to try something new and share it.
One morning, I was having a low mood day, when I woke up and felt like I couldn’t face the world because I felt like I was merely existing and not living. I explained this feeling to my cousin who told me “it’s okay, not to feel okay sometimes”. I want to be able to share the unspoken, especially as a melanin woman where were don’t really discuss how we are feeling.
I’ve always wanted to tap into someone else’s resource, whether it was a topic of conversation or helping with someone else, however I never thought about starting something of my own, that others can relate to. I have done a lot of soul searching and I have started to think and act BIGGER (not better than people) in order to move forward and swim to the shore of my ocean of emotions. I am learning to invest my energy in my idea (or thing), and just take the leap. What is the worst that can happen? I have a bit of fear? I am learning to be content and sharing my soulful journey.
Make up artist: @DollyEssence. Photographs by Pixus Photography coming soon.